"I have such a fear of not being able to finish what I have undertaken."

"Dear God, this cursed Cathedral is hard to do… Fourteen paintings on the go today… I'm exhausted and it seems that every day the light changes: it gets whiter and higher up."

"You do not mention the red poppies, which are the important ones as I already have irises, chrysanthemums, peonies and morning glories."

"I'm so frustrated. I want to smash everything."

"I am in despair. I am working like a madman, but I am not making any progress."